July 2010
52 posts
Leaving for colorado on the 6th, back on the 15th.
Leave for school the 20th in the morning. Holy titties.
PANIC.
I’m legit going to sit at home and make pros and cons lists tonight. Feel like that would probably be a legit move in my life though. hah
Today was perfect. Went mini golfing and then sat at the pekin lagoon thing and talked for almost three hours straight. Dinner after that. so so so so so happy.
I have nothing planned all day till 5 or 6.
I know I should do something groundbreaking or beneficial to my life. But I will most likely sit and stare at my computer screen. This is my life.
Only 22 days till I move back into Western.
I’m very excited, but damn am I going to miss being home. I love late night walks, driving around randomly, game nights, being able to go to the mall. Buh, Peoria area does not even begin to suck as much as I used to think it did.
So happy right now.
I feel like any second it is going to blow up in my face.
This is usually how life works, isn’t it?
This week has been really really good surprisingly. I am still adjusting to everything, but so far so good. Second date with ben today, he is amazing. I hate that it won’t go anywhere. stupid school.
Anyways, trashy party was a success. I’m sure classy party will be too. I love my friends.
Did anyone else know that the song “Right round” by flo rida from like a year and a half ago features Kesha PRE-$ sign?!
My mind is officially blown.
Damn regrets
Is it normal to know something is both the worst and best decision of your life?
tomorrow can not come soon enough. I need to get out of this town.
But aren’t you supposed to learn from your mistakes? I don’t consider this a mistake I just wish the story didn’t end this way Because I’m still in love with the person who helped me write it
Don’t fuck up, Don’t fuck up, Don’t fuck up.
Sappy, but needed
Eric and I officially broke up today.
I know a lot of people hated him, but it really sucks to lose my best friend of the past 3 years. He was there for me when I literally had no other friends, when my life crumbled, and when my life had never been better. I wish things would have worked between us, and I still have hope for the future. Please please realize there is still a chance, and...
Day 15;
Picture of myself;
Pretty much me 90% of my life.
Lets just witness;
how great of a week this will be.
Today-supposed to go boating. Going to rain, but it will still be a good day even if we don’t go.
Monday- Surprise Date! I have no clue what we are doing, but I’m excited/nervous.
Tuesday-Zach Berg and Lauren’s birthday!!!
Wednesday- second to last day of biology. Doing something with Zach for his birthday
Thursday- Road trip to NIU?
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Day 14
A picture of my favorite teachers;
I meant to take a picture of my “playa extreme” button of Mr. Garner that creeps out many in my car. He was so awesome, and he did nothing but encourage us to try new things and believe in ourselves.
And of course a given is Mr V.
SUCHABABE.
“I can’t tell you what it really is
I can only tell you what it feels like...”
Take me with you.: frustrated. →
not to sound selfish, but sometimes I wish people really did treat you how you treat them.
even if I get to bed really late, like 3:00 in the morning, I’ll still be up by 10 to get ready to go to my boyfriends house to hang out with him. I want to spend time with him. I’ll be tired but I don’t…
Girl, don’t sell yourself short! That is not being selfish, it’s called being...
I need a new hobby for the rest of the summer, any suggestions?
day 13
A picture of your friends;
Honestly, these are the only people keeping my summer going.
I miss Kristin and Matt so damn much though.
I’m such a blabbermouth. I don’t want to tell anyone about you, but you make me smile so much, I really cannot help it.
I hope this doesn’t fail.
Day 11
Picture of my favorite drink;
And water.
Gretchen:
I’m always afraid I will mess up too. But it is part of life, and I’m ready to date just to date, and make mistakes doing it! Life is too short to not.
Day 10
A picture of what you like to do;
Driving around, blaring music, and anything with this girl. I love summertime.
Thank you for being one of the few people who doesn’t suck!
Today was so so so good. Got awesome things from goodwill, listened to good music. Saw despicable me, got asked out on a date!
rahh. I’m so pumped. Life is good right now.
Eric and I agreed (me more than him) to go on a break for a while, it’s weird not talking to him at all, but it is something that needs to be done.
This was so easy to talk about, but putting it in action is tearing me apart.
I need strength right now so badly.
Day 09
A picture of what I had for lunch;
turkey pinwheels from walmart and some pretzels. Last minute meal before going to the morton pool.
Also: this is my 100th post. yay me!
Day 8
Picture of myself;
excuse the shitty quality. Eric has no clue how to take pictures.
It was really nice out tonight
Day 7: a picture that makes you cry
This doesn’t make me cry, but it’s the closest I can come to right now. This describes my mood so badly. I want to make mistakes, and I want to not be afraid to make them. I’ve never really made them before.
Yeah I'm doing one of these..
I avoid some people on purpose I’ve thought about cheating I hate the way I look most of the time I actually like the way I look most of the time I’ve been swimming in an ocean I’ve been swimming in a lake I have a sibling I have pets I’ve been on vacation recently I love meeting new people I am insanely shy I’m on a sports team My best friend is a boy I play music I don’t remember the last...
Warning: mope alert!
It sucks to realize you don’t fit in anywhere. All of my friends have their OWN groups, none of which I actually belong to. I’m just the little wanderer who goes from one to another. so weird. so shitty.
I haven’t slept that horribly in a very long time. You were all I could think about all night, and I broke out in sweats almost constantly. I guess that is what guilt will do to a person. I shouldn’t be doing this to myself right now.
Less than a week left now, so so so weird.
Day 2: What I’m wearing today
Keepin it classy. I miss western.
I miss looking up and seeing that fire and desire for me in your eyes. I saw it in his, and it scared the hell out of me to see it so plain as day. But I cannot help but absolutely love it.
I really need to face the fact my relationship is over. There is no way I can let this shit go on.
What the hell am I doing?
Day 01 - A picture of yourself Day 02 - A picture of what you wore today Day 03 - A picture of what you did today Day 04 - A picture of where you went today Day 05 - A picture of your morning Day 06 - A picture that inspires you Day 07 - A picture that makes you cry Day 08 - A picture of yourself Day 09 - A picture of what you had for lunch Day 10 - A picture of what you like to do Day 11 - A...
intense intense intense.
